Forgive the state of this paper that I write on to you now.
There is no sleep in this house now, there is only the ongoing pain at the long and drawn out suicide of humanity, that final desperate cry that is falling on deaf ears the world over. Our cities, our towns, and our villages are burning in this fever, we are being choked as the very oxygen of life itself is sucked into this unremitting chaos, this rack and ruin of our modern world. I know you have felt true pain in your life John, as I have mine, but this is unlike anything that we have seen before. There is no glory in death, no beauty in execution, no mercy in torture.
Man is at the mercy of fellow-man, and that well of mercy has reached its bitter and turgid end. It is dry, bone dry, and we have resorted to barbarity to replace what we have lost.
Even as I write this letter to you now I can hear the engines of jeeps prowling the street, the siren call for retribution wailing into the night. I can hear the distant thud of artillery threatening the very capital. The sands of our land are choking on the blood of its people, spilt time and time again. I have seen inhumane scenes, of neighbour killing neighbour, of families split by invisible sectarian lines, of death squads rampaging across the city executing those it hates on sight. I have lost the beauty that I once found in life itself, and it has been replaced by those faces that I see day in and day out. The faces that are willing to kill and to maim if you do not abide by their rules.
I cannot believe that these people have families that lovingly raised them to be citizens of the world, that were ensconced in the beauty of our religion from birth.
It would be a lie, a certain and death-defying lie, to tell you that I did not fear for my immediate future. There is no hope in munitions, helped either in its aim by the barrel of a gun or of a bomb held securely in the bay of distant plane. In that sense, they both share the same problem in that they only kill and main and alienate – they do not heal, they do not bring together the families of those that are at war with each other.
The news is the same the world over, each country fighting its own personal war against the populace. I pray for you my brother, as I shall pray for your family as you pray for mine. May we find each other again in a garden of peace.